BROKEN AND FRAYED HEARTS

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[Drawing the Pain to the Surface to Heal]

EXPERIENCE: Wayne saw a pimple being lanced and it was quickened to me. The Lord reminded me of the following Word to Ponder. He is going to draw out the pain of old wounds and bring healing to our souls.

WORD TO PONDER: OLD TESTS ARE FOR HEALING 1/22/04

When you suddenly find yourself caught in an old test, one that you have taken before, rejoice. This is your chance to get things right in places where you have stumbled before. Dear ones, this circle of pain is not allowed to make you fall, but to bring healing deep within your soul.

Sometimes there are tiny threads of past disappointments which are like little ingrown hairs. Life grows around them as you press on in life and they are ignored and unnoticed. When it is time to repair the effects of these old wounds I allow them to work their way toward the surface of your heart, Before you know it, there is a red area, a little pocket of infection that has become openly transparent. Give these old places to Me and I will lance these pimples with the sword of My Word. I will draw out the infection with My love and grant you the warm balm of My healing Word. My beloved child, always remember that when you ask Me for forgiveness, I do not keep a record of your sins, you are completely forgiven.

Ps 130:3, 4 NLT

LORD, if you kept a record of our sins, who, O Lord, could ever survive? But you offer forgiveness, that we might learn to fear you.

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HEARD 9/04/04: Surgery. I know it was painful.

VISION: Jesus sat down in the seat next to me and I just laid my head upon His shoulder. He touched my face and turned it towards Him and I felt a tear cascade down my cheek. At the same time my tear fell, I saw the same tear drop fall from His eye. He took my tear and placed it in His palm and it became a diamond. I know that He was feeling my pain of having deep soul surgeries this year. I heard Him say, My Bride.

Ps 38:8-10 NKJV

I am feeble and severely broken; I groan because of the turmoil of my heart. Lord, all my desire is before You; And my sighing is not hidden from You. My heart pants, my strength fails me; As for the light of my eyes, it also has gone from me.

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QUICKENED QUOTE: Until my heart was broken, it was never open.

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HEARD 4/30/04: The God of Justice goes to bat for you. Let’s see what we can do. You’re broken. Tear drop. Broken people. The whole truth and nothing but the truth. Broken. I will fix it. I will do a good job, day by day. I know what is needed. Renounce the stress, battle fatigue. Weary, worn. It’s a new beginning. Sing a new song. The past is not there.

I want him with me, he is not there. I know that. He will be shortly. He’s numb. I put him there. One day, hey I’m better. Healing as you go. After the holes are filled.

NOTE: When the Lord speaks to me, often He reveals the hearts of men in a form of conversation. For instance in the above, this was revealing an intercession over a loved one, that was numb and would receive healing day by day and finally in hindsight would notice things were better.

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HEARD 7/14/04: Come Holy Spirit, bring us in. Alignment. Obedience to completion. It’s not easy. Just what the doctor ordered. It’s all about love. So we press past the pain. To the heart of the matter. It’s how to heal. One layer at a time.

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CONCLUSION

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POEM: TO HOLD YOUR HEART

As I hold your heart in the palm of my hand,

And watch you walk from a child to a man -

I feel tender and vulnerable along with you too,

As the Master carves and crafts anew.

To be able to hold you and see you so clear,

To understand your owies and have you so near.

Is an honor seldom known

From seeds so long ago sown.

To be trusted with your heart

As you seek your new start

Is enough to make me tremble

As I watch Him carefully assemble.

The tatters and the frays

Of what has gone astray.

Lift and pull and gently tug.

All the threads until they are snug.

To see His image on the tapestry of your life

Come into focus as you lay down all strife.

What a glorious view having born so much pain.

Now that I have seen you I will never be the same.

May I never forget what you have shared with me

As we move forward into place and make history. 

1 John 3:16-17 NKJV

By this we know love, because He laid down His life for us. And we also ought to lay down our lives for the brethren. But whoever has this world's goods, and sees his brother in need, and shuts up his heart from him, how does the love of God abide in him?